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Being Lonely We closed down the bar went back to my place and did the usual things at about 4 in the morning I said I am going to bed now but she wasn’t sleepy and stayed up to watch movies and hours later climbed into bed she tossed and turned and made funny noises and when the sun came up we were both still awake and she started asking questions like did I believe in past lives and fairies and horoscopes and I told her I didn’t believe in much of anything and that I was very sleepy and she told me I had an interesting nose and that my hands were small and asked if I was always this quiet and I said yes I was and she asked me why I didn’t talk much and I told her that I didn’t have much to say and that I was very sleepy she said she was hungry and I said I didn’t have any food but she persisted so I stole an apple from my housemate then she found some of my poems and read them and asked me what they meant and I told her I didn’t know then she found my guitar and sat on my bed and played a Celtic song and sang in a cracked and heavy voice about fairies and past lives and I said that’s nice but I am very very sleepy and have to go to work soon and she played another song and then another and then a few more and finally stopped and turned on my computer to check her mail she talked to the screen as she read her mail and then I took a shower and when I came out of the shower she was still there and asked if I wanted a ride to work and I said no no thank you I will walk and I took her number and told her I would call and as I watched her car disappear around a corner the world seemed a much better place and I suddenly remembered that being lonely wasn’t as bad as a lot of things. |